butmybodyisverybusy,nomorehandshitthekeyboardThetimeformakinglovedoesnotallowmetoleaveforwriting.
IwentoutinyesterdayeveningandthenIcamebackatnoontoday.
WhenIamonmywayofcamingback,smokingonthestreetcornerwheredidn'tbotherpeople.Ifoundthereisamanpassingbymeandlookingatme.Whyyouhavethecouragelookingatme,butnocouragetoaccostme.
Afewdaysago,Ifoundthatmyaccounthadbeenaddedabanknote,afterwardsmylinejustwokeup.HecalledmeforcomingoutandsayingthatIwouldbemoldyifIstillstayandhidemyselfinmysmallroom.
IcameoutandstillsawhimonthecornerofthestreetandIgotintohiscar.Theairconditionermakemefeelingabitcold.
"How'sgoing?"
"Justsoso."
"Whyhaveyouhideyourselfintheroom?"
"I'mwriting."
"Whatweirdpapers?Needtohandinwhennewsemesterstartordidnotfinishtheworkofstschoolyear?"
"No,I'mwritingnovel."
"Writenovel?Lovestory?"
"No,eroticnovels."
"Wow,eroticnovels,youaregettingmoreandmoredifferent.Canyougivemetoread?"
"Youwillreadittoday."
"Willyouwritemein?"
"Notnecessarily."
Hesmiledatmeanddrovemefordinner.
Heis30yearsolderthanme.Thepasserbymightthinkthatheismyuncleormydaddy.Actually,heisoneofmySugardaddy.
Hehadknownmeforalongtime.whenIwasaHighschoolstudenthehadfoundme.Atthattime,theairportrapidtransithadnotbeenconstructed.Goingtotakethepneisabitdifficult.
Maybeyouwilskmewhyyouarewithsuchanolderman?PersonallyIlikeamatureman,
It'sjustthathe'sabittoomature,butIfeelgoodandhegivesmethesenseofdependabilityandsecuritywhatIwant.
Idon’twanttosaytoomuchabouthowIknowhimbecausetherearemanycomplexaspectsinvolvedandit’snoteasytotell.Inshort,hefoundme,tillnow,heunderstandmewelndknowsthatwhathappenedonme
everythingintheseyears.